Today’s first day of chemo was a success! (well three days ago) Thank you all for being so kind and supportive during this time. Your support has been overwhelming but in a good way. It feels great to know that I have a great support system and am not alone in this process.
I went to bed last night pouring my heart out to God. I prayed for my body to be strong, and to stay positive on my bad days. I swear, I woke up today not feeling so afraid compared to my recent hospital visits. As weird as it may sound, I found myself smiling. I was calm and accepting of the chemo process. I reflected over the past 17 years of my life; moving out of my parents house at the age of 17,(my rebel years) always doing things my way and relying on no-one. When I didn’t have a car to go to work I knew the solution were to walk 8 blocks to the bus station everyday. I refused to ask anyone for help and I never complained. Shortly after I became a single mom and although I was grateful to have that independence at a young age, I was blessed to have the support of my mother and helped me raised my daughter.
Cleary life was not easy being a young mom at that age, and I knew I had to work extremely hard to give my daughter the life she deserved. I remember working 3 jobs at the mall making barely enough to get by. I worked so hard and eventually got a management position at one of the retail stores, and it was the best feeling in the world for me at that time. The year was 1999, and being able to have that opportunity made me realize that whatever I wanted to be in life I knew I could and would, achieve.
Every milestone in my life is because I pushed, hard. It definitely wasn’t a smooth journey, but I never gave up on myself. My life lessons taught me to be humble, always. And so these pasts few weeks was a bit of a reality check for me, and has humbled me even more. I say this because I haven’t been able to rely on doing things myself with the cancer news and hospital visits. Yesterday I gave it all to God. I prayed for guidance, and for strength. Sometimes in life when we fall, we need others to help us get back up. I’m learning that these past few weeks and am beyond grateful. I am learning not to let pride get in the way.
One of my amazing followers reached out to Anthony to open a Go Fund Me to help raise money towards my medical expenses. She felt it was a way of paying forward because someone did it for her when she was battling Cancer. Her message was beautiful. I wasn’t planning on opening one because as an entrepreneur, I didn’t want anyone judging me, or feel like I was a burden. But as I mentioned before, I’m learning to let my pride down and understand that it is okay to receive help. I cannot express how much joy it brings me to know that God has put such wonderful people in my life. I can rest a bit knowing that if things were to get rough, I have that safety net that will help with medical bills. I’m going to share the link because I’m planning on doing something special in the future. Anything is truly appreciated!
Blogging and being a creative person makes me happy, so I’m going to do everything I can to continue to create content for you guys. I wanted to make sure today’s blog is not just about my personal life, so here are some fun outfit ideas for this weeks holiday festivities! I’m excited to get my hands on some turkey, yum 🙂
All white is such a pretty pallet for Fall. The top and shorts are from Vicidolls and I opted to pair the look with my OTS from last year. I kept it the same color combo. Off white is great with reds or deep olive greens. Below are a few links with fun looks you can mimic!
Thank you for allowing me to get a little more personal than usual. Thank you for letting me be fun and creative, and for building a community where I can bring my vision for the world to see. You truly are amazing, and everyone’s good vibes has really touched me beyond words. Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! Be Thankful everyday : )