I will never forget that one phone call on November 2nd, 2017, when I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Gastric Cancer. I found myself drowning in tears, all kinds of feelings came upon me: anger, disbelief, and extreme sadness. I remember clearly I wanted those I love the most near me – I wanted to share this news with them. I remember being in front of my mother and I held my tears so she would think I was strong but inside I wanted her to hold me as she did when I was a child.
Vomiting, nausea, hospital, needles and a bunch of medication took over my life. The worst part, the one word we all fear, Chemo. I couldn’t believe it, I never thought I would say this, “wow, it’s happening….I, Kyrzayda Rodriguez, have cancer. I suddenly started feeling depressed and my thoughts were taking over me. At that point I felt I was going to loose this battle. I wanted to share with you this part of my story because this is how I won and this is how I carry cancer I don’t let cancer carry me.
This is how the journey began on learning how to embrace myself. I lost my hair and the glow that once had. I’m still adapting to it, not going to lie it’s hard. However, I’m rocking it and you guys have been extremely supportive. At times we believe that self-love is changing our physical appearance in ways that we believe society is going accept us. In reality we forget to look at ourselves in the mirror and see the inner beauty that lies within us. At our worst that self-love will save us. I had to learn the hard way, to appreciate life in a way that I’m thankful for everything and everyone I have in my life.
Life is so precious and we should not wait for something bad to happen for us to realize self-love. It has nothing to do with the body, it’s truly loving you no matter what anyone says. It’s your soul and your essence. I will continue to get up in the morning wishing for a good day. Looking for that outfit and taking those pictures. I love that blogging helps me stay inspired. It’s a constant reminder for me not to give up. This platform is a blessing and I want to continue creating beautiful content for you guys!
Remember if your going through something go and search a little deeper for that self-love within.
Thanks for stopping by, xo K